Maltsie and Luchi

emo kid

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 12:01:04 GMT

Posted "5 CM per Second" movie at my sketch blog this morning. Finally finished watching it earlier too. Love the background, love the colors...love the realism of the plot. I think I like the first part the best because...because...I can really relate to it, being in a Long Distance Relationship myself.

Yun nga lang, they could have webcam-ed and IM-ed each other instead of writing snail mails...or call each other often... they could at least lasted longer together. I mean they're in Japan, where communication is always highly technologically advanced...and they only resorted to post offices?!

Or...or...meet halfway at train stations again (kung di pa rin pede yung girl, yung guy na lang uli kahit abutin syang ilang araw na byahe..effort naman pare) At least they're still in Japan. Try being literally continents apart! *heckles*

Ok. I don't make any sense at all.

Mom's in Nag Crusade now. "Mga ka-edad mo nagtatrabaho na ikaw pa ganyan ganyan ka lang yung mga plates mo lagi ka na lang ganyan sabi mo aayusin mo na sem mo ano na mangyayari sa buhay mo blahblahblah" As much as I love and respect my mom I just had to...turn up the volume of my stereo and drown out her words with Tarja Turunen's crooning.

Because the more I hear similar words like that from her, the more I resist and do the opposite of what she wants me to do.

I don't blame her though.

Maaan. How do you force yourself to do things you need to do? I keep dozing off from even a thought of doing my school works. *Yawnyawnyawn*

I was never this lazy when I was in high school. Let me rephrase that: I was NEVER EVER lazy when I was in high school. I remember I was the "Star Student"...The "Achiever"...Voted as the "Most Likely To Succeed"..."Artist of the Year"(at least in our school). My name regularly graced our school newspaper and on tarpaulins inside the campus..."Congratulations to Miss *my name* for winning...blahblah". I was popular. I was one of the trend setters. I was one of the Top Ten. I earned my own money earlier than my classmates. Tsk. That four years were my days in the sun.

And now, I turned into this...this...this sad sap. A sad, peerless and FAT sap who's still in college with nada money for her family (rhyme unintentional :B )

I guess my Mom also misses those days as much as I do.

uhuh.

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 16:21:04 GMT

Went to practice/audition yesterday. I felt like they aren't sure about me though. They wanted to up my pitch or something, but I'm naturally an alto. Sooo...I'll try to widen my range a bit. That means no more dairy, chocolates, coffee and cold drinks for a while I'm training my voice again.

If my voice wouldn't agree, I guess I'll have that talk with the members...I'm sure they'll not have any problems getting a new vocalist (they said that they auditioned many females vocalists).

Uncertainty. Delicious.

Anyways, here are my new vocal inspirations:

Sigh. I wish they'll just make songs that are in my range. But ohwell...this is an opportunity to train my voice further. I'll take this challenge. Yumyum.

***

How can you tell if your boyfriend isn't interested in you anymore?

Because lately, he doesn't make the same effort..hadn't heard his voice, reply to my Friendster messages nor leave any offline IM's anymore. I try not to over-analyze, but since he always find a way to be online with his "hectic" schedule anyway...isn't a simple "hi" message too hard to do?

Or I could be just that demanding.

Bah. You know what, I've had enough. I need to get away from the computer more and perhaps this will do good for my deflating ASSet (you know what sitting around all day can do to our shapely behind). Perhaps
I'll get a new gym membership, be a very good vocalist, perfect my thesis, ace my schoolworks and draw with traditional means. Yeah. I bet all I need is just a time not to think about this relationship. I mean if he can do it, so can I.

Bokals

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 22:39:52 GMT

It's nice that I hanged out with the Lunarock peeps yesterday...I'm liking the feeling of being surrounded by people now. Good start, good start.

Today I'm going to meet my new band mates for the first time, and I'm a bit nervous because I haven't really studied the MP3 the drummer sent me. I'm also a bit shaky of the fact that I'm going to replace their very skilled vocalist (who wanted out because of her ex-boyfriend). I'm actually not sure about my crooning "skills" now because it's been awhile since I last sang for a band (three years?). Ohwell. Life's too short to let opps like this pass.

Let's hope for the best.

The Truth In Advertising

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 22:16:59 GMT

...and this is what I'm "supposed" to go into?

Pfft.

Oh Goodie!

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 00:35:40 GMT

While I'm waiting for my gel medium on my illustration board (for extra textural effect on my new painting), I browsed through a lot of self-help articles and I must say, I'm beginning to enjoy them again :) Wikihow is full of short, fun but very helpful articles! The articles that I'm more inclined to read are those about living independently. Mmm. Such a happy happy thought. :)

I love Videojug too, a some sort of a Youtube of How Tos -- and funny at that! :) I found this particular video a long time ago but I only appreciated its advices only now. Here it is:

How To Have A Long Distance Relationship

Look at that guy's expressions! So silly! :D

"Problems may arise when one is busier than the other..."

(Ouch!)

I can attest to that, Luch is definitely busier than me, and because he makes his own money he can afford going out to concerts, road trips, pig outs with friends and other fun stuff. Sure, I'm happy that he's having great time, no doubt about that...it's just that, it sucks when my nearly sedentary life doesn't. Pfft. Well, at least the positive side I can think of this situation is now I'm aware of the need to have more in my life, not being content in being just a couch potato --- this actually made me want to have a life of my own...meet new friends, find work, enjoy life at the fullest. :) Aww...now I'm feeling better.

***

It's nice to be able to sleep in my bedroom again --- in my own "Bat Cave"--- after months of not accessing it privately (my Balikbayan uncle used my double deck as his cabinet for two months). At 21, I'm now feeling the complete need for independence. For now the area I can fully control are of of my studies, my allowance, my time, my habits. Kinda going through what the westerners' preteens are going through, so for them I may seem like a late bloomer (nothing wrong with this in our culture thought). BUT better master self first, yes? After this self- possession and mastery, I'll move on the next step: getting a job then getting my own pad. After that, I'd travel and hopefully visit my love abroad. Mmm. Such nice dream.

Ack! My left shoulder is still aching, I think there's something wrong with my nerves and veins surrounding my left clavicle to my neck...the pain bothered me since last week...oh gosh, I'm getting scared. I think I need to rest my shoulders now. Ciao! :P

I hope I'll get to finish my homework before 2!!!!

*trust, trust, trust*

Dude Yeah!

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 18:12:21 GMT

I think the time has come.

Time this hermit need to come out of its cave and not be one. I have to grow up, and growing up means relating to other people. Mannn. You don't know how hard to be as a hardcore introvert like me to try to be an extrovert!

It's so hard being chatty, I get so tried around people. It all felt phony. I try so hard, yet I fail. Big time.

And since when I get worried that I have no friends???

***

Hello once again Almond Crunch cereal, my midnight comfort food o' mine. I've been a weepy goo again to my boyfriend, been too clingy. I'm so much of a nut job hundredfold lately, had zero score in the super girlfriend department. I've even proposed break up, what was I thinking??

Man. Why does whenever you fall in love deeply with someone, your inner nutso creeps up on you and decide to ruin everything! Pfft.

I do hope he'll stick around though. I don't want my history to repeat itself!

Sigh.

He didn't even left an offline message. Nice going, Pao, nice.

Should I apologize to him again? Garrr. It's now humiliating!

GAAAAHHHH....my world's turning upside down! I couldn't put up with the changes...and the more I do something about it, the more worse everything gets.

Sigh. I better nap now and do something productive later.

a birthday approaching....

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 16:26:28 GMT

Hey There Katrina

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 19:14:47 GMT

"Hey there (katrina)
You be good and don't you miss me
One more year and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Katrina here's to you
This ones for you....

....A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Katrina I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame..."

Departure -- Kenshin Himura OST

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 16:56:21 GMT

ito yung matagal ko nang hinahanap na track mula sa samurai x: reflections. hayyy. love this song! feeling ko tuloy nasa samurai x ako hehe